This week has probably been one of the HARDEST weeks since being single again. Being a single parent sucks, it sucks so bad, but I have to remember that I did this for all the right reasons, it is the only way I will make it through.
I have been working a ton of hours, and everyone is giving me some sort of "opinion" about how many hours I am working, and frankly I am so sick of hearing about it. The last thing I want to do is be away from my kids, I feel like a horrible mother to my kids, especially Brea since she has been the primary babysitter to her brother while I am working so much. But, we are holding on, with everything we have and we will make it through this bumpy ride.
This weekend my niece graduates from High School, I am so proud of her, she amazes me. She has already accomplished so much for such a young woman. I want her to look at the life that I have (not that it is bad, it is just HARD) and always do her best to make a conscious decision about how her actions will affect her future. I love my kids with all my heart, but if I could pick better, more loving fathers for them I would in a heartbeat.
Doing it alone, is hard. If it is hard for me, it is hard for them, but we are alive and we have each other, so that is all that matters. I will continue to dig deep for strength.
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