The signing of the papers was quick, so quick in fact I did not even make it into the court room. In and out of the court house in like 25 minutes. If only the whole divorce process was so quick maybe I would not have pulled half my hair out. So I am officially divorced, I can move on, or attempt to.
The pain haunts me and I hate it. It is affecting me still in ways I wish it would not. I had nightmares for days after our final court date. I fear he will find me and break into my house and hurt me while I sleep. And the physical pain hurts still, when it rains I can feel it in my ribs where he hit me, it aches like it did for weeks after and I had to hide the pain from my family. It reminds me of the torment I was put through and I hate him for that.
I am so happy all that is behind me, I am in a much better place, I am so much happier now and it is invigorating to have my independence back and to be able to get ready for work in the morning and not be accused of being a whore or cheating because I am putting make up on.
I actually LOVE MY LIFE!!!
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